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Tired Or Nah?

December 21st, 2017
Posted in #LIFEINHD

As I lay in bed blogging, half awake… wishing I could fall back asleep after abruptly being awakened by the doorbell a little bit ago, I’m realizing just how tired my body really is. It’s 9:49 am. I should be good to go considering I’ve been getting up at 6:30 am for months… rushing around like a mad woman to get 3 small kiddos out the door by 7:20 am… praying the elements work in my favor as we get further into Wisconsin winters, as of late. But, here it is almost 10 am and all I want to do is lay in bed ALL day… sleeping of course (an impossible feat) and only getting up to eat holiday cupcakes & cookies that we’ve been gifted lately. Is that too much to ask for haha?

I know, I know. It’s not realistic but it sure does sound amazing right about now.

I’m usually not one for “chillin’,” but this holiday break couldn’t have come at a better time. I’m breaking hard! Let’s just say I’ve only been out the house twice in the last week since the kiddos break started. I’m starting to get cabin fever but it has been glorious. And I don’t say that to say things have been perfect, but that things have slowed down, and my time and energy has solely been directed into my husband, our children and our household.

Now, if you know me, you know getting me to sit down is no easy feat. I absolutely LOVE to be on the go! Don’t get me wrong, I’ve gone on some whirlwind cleaning & organizing sprees this past week, but I’ve said “no,” to a lot of things that require my attention outside the home & “yes,” to everything family & myself.

“Lounging,” around is JUST what I needed. And I dare say, my kiddos needed it too considering they’re all still knocked out… sprawled across their beds, and one sprawled our our across mine haha… nursing every 2 seconds just to remind me she runs the house still even while she sleeps. Simply put, we are TIRED!

I didn’t realize just how tired I was until I slowed down. I’ve been pregnant, nursing, & or co sleeping for the last 6 1/2 years. My body is not my own lol. My husband has a demanding schedule which requires him to be away (and although he’s still dedicated to home/family) often so momma bear is juggling 3 bear cubs along with wife & mom duties, attempting to have a social life & working on personal goals/entrepreneurship as I can.

I used to be rocked by this. And, not always in a good way. It’s easy to complain when not focusing on gratitude. As I’ve grown and matured, I’ve replaced my “negative,” feelings with ones of thankfulness, understanding, and grace. Ahhhh yes, grace! Grace for myself …. I don’t have to all together but I’m doing the best I can. Some days I have it things in order, others (well most days), I’m wearing my husbands clothes looking for my cell phone while talking on it.

I’ve learned to have more grace for my husband because I know there’s no place he would rather be than home, & understanding how important it is to be supportive of his GOD given career, as it has not only brought us stability, but allowed us to he a blessing to so many as well. It’s easy to point out the things he may not do or be apart of at home, but pointing out all the amazing things he does do & is apart of always brings a smile to my face and heart. I would rather compliment & encourage him… magnifying his strengths… not “shortcomings,” (which we all have). He really is so committed to his faith & family, and that’s more than I could ever ask for.

I’m still praying to have more grace in all areas of my life. It is vital. It is necessary. We all need it.

Our life is a beautiful chaos. Yes, I’m tired, but I’m so incredibly thankful for GOD blessing me with everything I’ve ever wanted. As I tear up typing this right now, I am so in awe at GOD’s favor & faithfulness. He has blessed me watch the greatest gifts: life, my husband & my children. How can I not find strength to keep going, when I have them to take care of & love on? The struggle may be real at times, but so is Jesus!

Thank you lord for ordering my steps. I will continue to move my feet so that you can do so…. after I attempt to close my eyes again that is. It’s 10:20 am and I have no shame in the fact that I’m going to attempt a 30 minute nap lol!

Moms/Dads our there, I encourage you all to keep moving & grooving. You’re doing amazing!

Xoxo,

Heaven

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